:: A Vagrant's Story ::

:: Friday, August 08, 2003 ::

No words of mine can describe me right now. I'll let this song do it for me.
Augh. There's a pain deep within, so true and pure. My head's so cloudy...
What's going on? Can someone tell me...?

My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

You used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

:: Kevin 2:55 PM [+] ::
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Today, I pack for my trip.
I'm going to the Grand Canyon. For the next week or so.
I'll bring back some pics, and hopefully some drawings too.

My head's so clouded...argh...I still can't think.
Maybe it'll all clear up when I come back.
See ya later folks.

:: Kevin 1:12 PM [+] ::
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A note to Daniel.

Hey man, what's up?
I got your IM.

And, well, I'll think about it.

I know everyone deserves a second chance. Everyone makes mistakes--no matter how well planned or well intentioned they are. I would know.
And if I were to deny anyone of another chance, then I'd be just like the rest.
I'd become the thing I've hated most.

But given the circumstances of what happened, it has raised doubts because it has caused so much pain to me; to the point where I am inable to do anything the rest of the day. It continues still today.
I'll think about it.
But don't get your hopes up.

:: Kevin 12:58 AM [+] ::
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Hey people.
Man...for some reason... I really want to dance. (anyone care to join me? ^_^)
I don't know why.
The bad thing is, I can't. I have to keep my blood pressure low
or else my inner wounds will burst open...so says my doctor. Stupid surgery...

Stupid pills.... I still don't remember what I was gonna put. lol
If you dunno what I speak of, look at the last post. ^_^;;

Well, here's a picture I drew while in the hospital.
I've been working on it for the past 3 to 5 hours (I dunno when I exactly started) coloring and the like.



If it's not showing up on your browser, copy and paste this link:
http://www.geocities.com/superrad35/searching.jpg
Try hitting the back button once the page loads. The picture might show up on this page. If not, you'll have to be content seeing it from the link. =p


It's not bad, considering I was drugged up with painkillers while I drew it. ^_^;;;
I'm suprised that anyone let me use a marker at the hospital while I was in such a state. lol

The words say "Ushinawareta tsubasa wo sagashite..."
Anyone willing to take a guess at it?
I'll leave it to your imagination. ^_^

It's late. I should probably go to sleep.
....nah....
Who needs sleep? =p

See ya!
Oyasumi nasai! ^_^

:: Kevin 12:36 AM [+] ::
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What a day.
I went to school to find out my classes for next semester.

Bleh, my schedule was messed up. Thus, after an hour of waiting in line to get my classes,
I had to wait some more to fix it.
It was a good 4 or 5 hours. -_-;;

On the bright side, I got to see some friends again. It was cool.
And I also got to read some of my "World Masterpieces" book.
Around 2-ish I left the waiting area and said bye to my friends there. I walked around the school and found
a spot under a tree and sat down and read for a good while (I was still waiting...augh).
Currently, I'm reading the tale of "Sir Gawain and the Green Knight."
It's really cool. It's told in the perspective of a bard retelling the story to a bunch of people on the street.

Next, I plan to read Dante's Divine Comedy.... or maybe Don Quixote.... I dunno yet....

Hmm....I was gonna write something up but....I forgot....

I think this is the work of my evil pain pills.
They make the pain go away.... along with every thought I have.
Whoa... someone make the room stop spinning. I wanna get off.... @_@
augh...

Maybe another day.
Good night people.

:: Kevin 8:09 PM [+] ::
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AUGH!

She took my screen name too!!
I can't get into it anymore.

Grrr....

:: Kevin 11:08 PM [+] ::
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Ah... back from hell only to enter hell again...

Oh well. It's...."home" I suppose.

Yeah, it's Kevin. I'm back from the hospital. That was one of the most miserable times of my life.

But, first thing's first:

I KNOW WHO YOU ARE "THEREDHUNT01!"

...I know where you live too... lol

That was my cousin, Kate, who posted the last 2 posts. That was redundant. lol
Anyways, thanks for posting the tagboard....eventhough no one used it.... ¬_¬

But, I WILL get revenge. Yes....revenge.

Anyways, my mind's clouded beyond belief right now. I can't think. I'll post more later...

:: Kevin 11:04 PM [+] ::
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