:: A Vagrant's Story ::

:: Saturday, July 10, 2004 ::

[Mood: Hmm...]
[Music: Nature]

So it begins...

:: Kevin 10:15 AM [+] ::
...

[Mood: All things considered, I'm doing fine]
[Music: None at the moment]

Hmm...last day of driver's ed.
It was a cool class.
And the instructors were just awsome.
It's kinda sad that we would leave there
and never see it again.

Other than that, I've just been, you know,
doing stuff.

.......

....in other matters,
It REALLY pisses me off when
a person puts a background for their blog
(any sort of online journal)
that makes it near impossible to read the text unless you
highlight the whole damn thing.
I mean....what the crap?!
Be SMART and chose something that doesn't strain
your readers' eyes!

.......

and in other other matters,
I can't find my anime disks with furi kuri
or excel saga...
*tear* ;_;

:: Kevin 8:58 PM [+] ::
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[Mood: Knocking on wood]
[Music: The Mighty Mighty Bosstones-The Impression that I get]
{semi-blasting still)

I do not know what's real or true anymore.
Too much death...

Today, I woke up feeling pretty crap from last night.

Just...constant....THINKING...
Of ALL things, thinking, fucks me over most.

So I try to cheer up
while waiting for my driver's ed class
to start by listening to
modest mouse's float on for like,
5 bajillion times
in a row.
I feel a little more mellow.
Still though, I was tinged
with some melancholy and a deep pain.

But soon after the class started, I laughed a lot.
All thanks to my driver's ed teacher.
He's so awsome.
And while I slipped boundries once and a while,
for the most part
I was able to distract myself.
Although,
fluxes got worse because we would constantly talk about
accidents that killed people.
Like...ever 30 mins, we had a story about death by
cars by human error and then some.
I don't know why, but it deepened the pain
moreso.
It was fighting for the place
of which will bring more pain to this body.
It's all sad though...about the car
accidents that could be prevented.

After my dad picked me up and took me to his work area,
instead of working on my book for
AP lit (beacause I knew my mind would wander back
into painful territory),
I took a 45 minute stroll around the block by the
mall. All the while, I was trying to sing.
Even when I was out of breath,
I would keep doing it so that my
lungs and throat would hurt.
It was a good way to distract myself.
It was all good fun though.
Unfortunatly,
I timed it all wrong and had 15 mins of spare time
before my dad got out of work.
So I just sat there...
trying to meditate and keep my mind free...
but even in there, I get hurt again.

So at home, I stumble to my computer...and...well..
...several more hours of nothingness later, here I am,
almost in the same condition as yesternight.
Although I got something reasurring myself that maybe,
just maybe, I got something wrong again.
But maybe I'm just being played the fool again.

I never had to knock on wood.
But I know someone who has.
Which makes me wonder if I could.
It makes me wonder if I never had to knock on wood.
And I'm glad I haven't yet.
Because I'm sure it isn't good.
That's just the impression that I get.

I'm not a coward.
I've just never been tested.
I'd like to think that if I was, I would pass.
Look at the tested and think there but for the grace go,
I might be a coward.
I'm afriad of what I might find out.

:: Kevin 10:05 PM [+] ::
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[Mood: OMG...not...fairing...well...against...battle...]
[Music: Catch 22-Day in Day out]

My ears...are going...to...BLEED at this rate.

EVEN my ska isn't helping....

...my HAPPY MUSIC is failing me.

:: Kevin 12:08 AM [+] ::
...

[Mood: wow...it's amazing how fast your mood can drop...]
[Music: Goo Goo Dolls - Big Machine]


...after hearing...
...I wonder how I let it happen again.

Hmm...blasting isn't helping.... >_<
I hope sleep will come easy tonight...

:: Kevin 12:03 AM [+] ::
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[Mood: Ho hum...]
[Music: The sound of my own guitar]

Wow...my ass was kicked today.
I dunno why.
I felt sooo wiped out after drivers ed.
It's like a full day's worth of school. >_<

Now, I feel a bit more calm....with a side
of hyperness. =p
...it probably came from the soda. Haha.

Well, at least there's only 2 more days of this.
Other than that, not much else has happened.

And there's no one to hang with I suppose.
No contacts. Haha, figures. I'm too damn sexy for you all. xD

I've also gone over some colleges.
Right now, I have my finger on
Reed College
Willamette College
and USC.

More to come later. I dunno.
Maybe accross the country?
East coast?
NYU looks pretty cool....
...but I don't have a real reason for wanting to be there.

I hope my finacial situation pulls through for this college
thing though.

Well, until next time,
float on.

:: Kevin 8:37 PM [+] ::
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[Mood: Doin' alright]
[Music: Comedy Station]

Just wanted to wish everyone a happy 4th of July.
Hope everyone's having fun out there and watching
the fireworks.

Tell me how it went, eh?

:: Kevin 10:28 PM [+] ::
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Where in the Final Fantasy world?


....sounds good.

:: Kevin 1:43 PM [+] ::
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